The Call
So I mustered up all my courage and went into my bedroom and called him. I was grinning so widely and my heart was beating so fast. It's been a long time to actually call up a boy that I have started to develop a crush on.
After multiple dialing tones went by, he finally picked up the phone. I wanted to say hi but I got nervous and didn't say anything. He was silent as well for the first few seconds. I squeaked out a weak hello? and that's when he said hi back and laughed. And after the hellos, there were awkward silences haha. He was chuckling over the phone while I was speechless at what to say. I asked whether if there were mosquitoes to bite him and stuff, it was so damn awkward. I was legit surprised at his voice, he had this American accent that he mentioned before but hearing them in person really surprised me. And I fell a little bit more in love with that. He chuckled more. IT WAS SO DAMN CUTE. He then said, "haha, this is hard." OMG, was he actually feeling nervous as well? Does he actually have a tiny bit of feelings for me? After a few more awkward minutes of silence and me listening to his adorable chuckles, he decided to end the call and we said our goodbyes.
A few minutes after he posted himself sliding down the slide while laughing softly. SO. CUTE. So, I replied to it with "cutie 😁".
"Oh wow, is that a confession? 🙄"
I sent a heart. (1. I didn't know how to respond to that. 2. I kinda wanna let him know that I like him too.)
"But you said I was too old :(" (me)
"Wait what, seriously" SHIT. I fucked up didn't I? "You like me?" Well done MeowJam, you made him think that you're this dumb girl who falls in love easily over the internet without meeting someone IRL first. Fuck.
I told him about how the things he said made me attracted to him and how I wanted to try.
"So here I am, trying..."
"Oh... I don't even remember telling you all that haha. I was just being impulsive I guess" He doesn't remember? Fuck, that hit my heart so bad I legit felt sad and shed a few tears.
"You really want to try?" he asked
"...... I'd like to know how you feel first ._." Well duh, of course, you ask the other person how he feels about this sudden confession.
"I'm not sure how I feel about this yet" Yep, he rejected. It's fine.
"Ok sure, Take your time. Good night :)" I was still a little bit hurt
"Sorry 😣 I just don't want to say anything wrong. Well at least he was kind about that, he thought about how not to hurt me :') Maybe we could meet up someday"
"It's ok I understand 😊 fake smile And yes, I would love to meet up someday"
The conversation ended there and I hid under the covers and sob at the shame and stupidity.
After multiple dialing tones went by, he finally picked up the phone. I wanted to say hi but I got nervous and didn't say anything. He was silent as well for the first few seconds. I squeaked out a weak hello? and that's when he said hi back and laughed. And after the hellos, there were awkward silences haha. He was chuckling over the phone while I was speechless at what to say. I asked whether if there were mosquitoes to bite him and stuff, it was so damn awkward. I was legit surprised at his voice, he had this American accent that he mentioned before but hearing them in person really surprised me. And I fell a little bit more in love with that. He chuckled more. IT WAS SO DAMN CUTE. He then said, "haha, this is hard." OMG, was he actually feeling nervous as well? Does he actually have a tiny bit of feelings for me? After a few more awkward minutes of silence and me listening to his adorable chuckles, he decided to end the call and we said our goodbyes.
A few minutes after he posted himself sliding down the slide while laughing softly. SO. CUTE. So, I replied to it with "cutie 😁".
"Oh wow, is that a confession? 🙄"
I sent a heart. (1. I didn't know how to respond to that. 2. I kinda wanna let him know that I like him too.)
"But you said I was too old :(" (me)
"Wait what, seriously" SHIT. I fucked up didn't I? "You like me?" Well done MeowJam, you made him think that you're this dumb girl who falls in love easily over the internet without meeting someone IRL first. Fuck.
I told him about how the things he said made me attracted to him and how I wanted to try.
"So here I am, trying..."
"Oh... I don't even remember telling you all that haha. I was just being impulsive I guess" He doesn't remember? Fuck, that hit my heart so bad I legit felt sad and shed a few tears.
"You really want to try?" he asked
"...... I'd like to know how you feel first ._." Well duh, of course, you ask the other person how he feels about this sudden confession.
"I'm not sure how I feel about this yet" Yep, he rejected. It's fine.
"Ok sure, Take your time. Good night :)" I was still a little bit hurt
"Sorry 😣 I just don't want to say anything wrong. Well at least he was kind about that, he thought about how not to hurt me :') Maybe we could meet up someday"
"It's ok I understand 😊 fake smile And yes, I would love to meet up someday"
The conversation ended there and I hid under the covers and sob at the shame and stupidity.
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